Stuck in a loop where life is interfered with as thoughts/ feelings/perceptions of another time/place when in shock and possibly terror, get in the way of life enjoyment.
Seeminly ‘OK’ – till thrown back into it again
Trauma is stuck within, and is blocking your normal emotions/flows of all parts of yourself.
Stuck Liver Qi and phlegm – maybe then with some Heat thrown in.
May have massive nutritional imbalances.
Likely at the very least a massive Vitamin B 12 depletion – please see more here.
Investigate whether you have pyroluria and get treatment (bio available zinc and Vit B 6 etc)
Take also a lot of magnesium in your body and on skin, Vit C orally.
See all written in the crying too much/rage areas in this app.
Find a good natural healer to assist you through the process of rediscovering yourself. Chinese herbs and acupuncture will help.
Start your own clearing practices.
Then find a good counselor – need to be more stable first.